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Angkatan #53 SMA Fons Vitae 1, Marsudirini

It's a wrap fellas, EXPECTATO FV1'13 LULUS 100%

Terimakasih atas kerjasama-nya selama 3 tahun ya #53

Congratulation, we survived high school and ended our very best moment of life, together.

But right now, these moments are not stories, this is happening

I remembered that day

You parked your car on a roadside, with a lake and a field as our view

Yeah, you took me to your favorite place, which mean you kept your promise

We just sitting there and talked about our things. And it was nice, very, very nice.

We laughed in many things.Yes we do, like there is no limit for us to laugh about anything in around us

Until we talked about our time. 

1 month to go.

And it's getting hard to pretend that I was strong enough to face it. No, I'm not. 

There are so many things that crumble in my mind. There are too many "What if..?"  

Well, in that time you saw me trying so hard to not cry. You just staring at in silence.

In a second time you pull me in to your hug, I feel you kissed my hair for a couple times and suddenly said,
 "it's okay, we will be alright, we can fight the distance if we stay together"

Honestly, it was surprised me, because you know, this is not our thing. We're not kind of a romantic people.

But, I have to admit that i loved it, i loved being in around your arms. I feel safe.

I feel so much better, and I know that we can through this, together.

I realized that I already fall in to you. Deep.

The best thing that I know now is you're exist and you're mine

The Final Page Episode

“The Robin”
Step 1:  Admit to yourself that you still have feelings for this girl
Step 2:  Choose the completely wrong moment to make a move and get shot down on purpose
Step 3:  Agree that you two don’t work, locking the door on any future you have together
Step 4:  Robin goes nuts
Step 5:  Find the person that annoys Robin the most in the world (Patrice) and ask for her help
Step 6:  Check with doctor about possible broken ribs after big hug from Patrice
Step 7:  Pretend to be dating Patrice
Step 8:  Wait until Robin inevitably breaks into your apartment to show the Playbook to Patrice
Step 9:  After Robin shows Patrice the Playbook pretend to have a fight
Step 10:  Show your “loyalty” to Patrice by burning the Playbook; besides you don’t need it anymore
Step 11:  Wait for your friends to stage an intervention for Robin
Step 12:  Tell only Ted about your intentions to propose to Patrice
Step 13:  Wait and see if Ted tells Robin, and if he does, it means your best bro in the world has let her go and given you his blessing
Step 14:  Robin arrives at her favorite spot in the city, and finds this page to the playbook
Step 15:  Robin realizes she’s standing under mistletoe

Robin: “Seriously, Barney? Even you — even someone as certifiably insane as you — must realize this is to far! You lied to me, manipulated me for weeks. Do you really think I could kiss you after that? Do you really think I could trust you after that? This, this is proof of why we don’t work,  why we’ll never work. So thank you. You set me free. How could I be with a man who thinks that this trick, this enormous lie could ever make me want to date him again?
Barney: Turn it over.

Step 16:  Hope she says yes. 

“Robin Sherbatsky, will you marry me?”
“Yes.”

This episode absolutely be my all time favorite. No doubt.

Barney & Robin

Barney:	I'm done. You don't have to worry anymore.
Robin:	What do you mean?
Barney:	I'm done. Trying to get you. I can't do it anymore. I'm sorry it's taken me this long to figure it out, but I promise... I'm done making a fool of myself.
Robin:	Barney, you haven't been making a fool out of yourself-
Barney:	It's okay, it's okay. I want it to be okay. So here's what's gonna happen: I'm gonna get us two drinks, come back and comment on the likely size and color of the nipples on that redhead at the bar... with the big, dark nipples... And you're gonna be grossed out, but you're gonna laugh a little anyway, and then you'll tell a funny story about 'that bitch Patrice' at work, but neither of us are gonna say "Hey, how's it going? Good to see you!" because, it really will be good to see you. Think we can swing that?
Robin:	Yeah. I do.
Barney:	Badass.

Sometimes, you have to realize that you've been fooling around while trying to get something that you want. You gave your very best shot and try to make your own self think and believe you can have anything you want. But it's not, that's not how the things work. 

You have to open your eyes wider, dude.

"Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you got to do is call"

"And I declare, that I was forever grateful to have them in my life"

18

Nama: Tara Rasasti

Umur: Sudah 18

Iyanih umur gue udah 18.

Iya, iya gue tau kesannya gue tua banget sekarang. Rasanya baru kemaren gue masuk usia legal WNI, baru kemaren seneng-seneng dapet KTP, dapet SIM, terus seneng karena jam malem ditambahin, eh sekarang udah nambah setahun aja. Waktu mungkin sekarang bukan jalan lagi tapi lompat kodok pake per di atas trampolin.

Jujur tahun ini gue gak begitu excited sama tanggal 25. Gue punya teori, mungkin semakin bertambah umur seseorang, semakin berkuranglah rasa semangat untuk cepet cepet ganti umur, soalnya dulu kayaknya gue semangat 95 banget kalo udah deket-deket tanggal saat gue berpisah dengan tali pusar gue, sekarang? Biasa. 

Pengennya malah kalau bisa jangan cepet-cepet ganti angka.

Tapi,

gak berarti gue gak inget sama tanggal ini, gue inget, inget banget malah. 

Dan gue harus mengakui, saat gue dinyatakan sah berumur 18, hal pertama yang gue pikirin adalah gue akan berevolusi. Gue merasa akan ada banyak hal yang berubah dari hidup gue yang biasanya, akan ada banyak moment yang terbentuk, akan banyak cerita dengan alur, latar tempat & waktu yang beda dan tokoh-tokoh baru yang akan tertulis, akan ada petualangan baru.

Entah siapa yang akan tetap tinggal dan siapa yang pergi. Entah kenangan mana yang akan tetap  terpatri dan yang akhirnya kehapus.

Jadi takut,

......takut petualangannya gak seseru petualangan yang sekarang, takut semua berubah.

This

"And now I am going to leave with you with a short paragraph that my bestfriend text me on new year's eve a couple of years ago and I hope this will lead you to do something that will change your life forever, like it did mine: As we grow up,we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' heart. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.So take lots of pictures laugh a lot, freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun comes up, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

-Ika Natassa

Kurang dari 3 bulan

Entah ada angin apa, tiba-tiba gue pingin mampir dan nulis di blog ini.
Cukup lama ya ternyata nggak nulis disini, gue sempet lupa gimana rasanya ngeblog. Kangen. 
Well, terlalu banyak kejadian yang terjadi dan nggak sempet gue share disini.
Dan nggak mungkin kalo misalnya gue harus looking back ke masa lalu dan cerita apa aja yang udah gue alamin selama off dari blog ini. Tangan gue bisa punah.
Yang pasti apapun itu kejadian yang udah lewat semuanya sudah terlewati dengan baik.

So, yang mau gue ceritain disini mungkin adalah bagaimana gue menjalani hari-hari gue sebagai siswi kelas 12 ini. Say hello to PM, say hello to Try Out, say hello to hell. 
Yep, 2013 adalah tahun terakhir gue menjabat sebagai anak SMA. Kontrak gue sebagai penghuni SMA Fons Vitae 1 akan berakhir dalam waktu kurang dari 3 bulan lagi. Ngeri.

Tadi pas pelajaran ke 8-9, kita anak-anak kelas 12 dikumpulin di aula bawah untuk pembahasan UN.
Jadwal udah di tentuin, udah fix. 15 April-18 April adalah waktu dimana gue, teman-teman seangkatan, dan seluruh anak kelas 12 di Indonesia bertempur di Medan perang setelah di training selama 3 tahun. Belom lagi segala pernak pernik Ujian Sekolah plus Ujian Praktek. Okesip.
What can I say? 3 bulan ke depan bener-bener akan jadi bulan-bulan ter-hectic sepanjang 17 tahun gue hidup. 

Mengesampingkan semua itu, sebenernya gue seneng akan lepas seragam juga, akan lepas dari image anak SMA dan move ke lingkungan baru dimana lo bisa dibilang dewasa. Oke, oke, gue tau dengan ngomong gini gue secara tidak langsung mengetahui bahwa gue akan kena karma dan menjilat ludah gue sendiri, berharap bisa menarik kembali ucapan gue ini di semester pertama gue jadi mahasiswa. Tapi kalian juga pasti ngerasain kan lelah-nya melakukan rutinitas yang sama selama bertahun-tahun. Bosen. Jenuh. 

....tapi

Gue sadar pasti kalo sebenernya gue sendiri juga nggak dan belum rela (banget) keluar dari sekolah, dari rutinitas gue di SMA, dari pertemuan dengan orang-orang yang udah gue kenal selama 3 tahun, dari our very best moment in life. Nggak rela suer. 

Dari tadi gue udah midblowing sendiri pas Pak Romanus jelasin segala macem tetek bengek UN, gue ngeliat sekitar gue, disana banyak temen-temen seperjuangan gue lagi pada sibuk sendiri sama kawanannya, ketawa-ketiwi, ngobrolin hal-hal yang cuma mereka yang ngerti, tipikal anak SMA sekali. Well, orang-orang inilah yang setiap hari gue temuin.
Anyhow, gue ngebatin, apa mereka ngerasain hal yang sama kayak yang gue rasain ya? Apa mereka ngeh kalo waktu mereka untuk ketawa-ketawa bareng dan menikmati indahnya masa-masa SMA itu tinggal bentar banget.  
Atau cuma gue yang ngerasa galau gini nggak mau lepas dari memori-memori SMA?





Tunjuk tangan dong buat yang ngerasain juga,
......anyone?