Grown up. Should I?

Peter: Well I will not grow up! You cannot make me! I will banish you like Tinkerbell.
Wendy: I WILL NOT BE BANISHED!
Peter: Then go home. Go home and grow up. And take your feelings with you!

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Maybe I'd be the happiest and most fortunate person of the world if I do not have to grow up and grow old. I will always be happy and could feel the pleasures of youth forever. Can continue a bunch of happiness time when I teenagers like that's happening now. And I do not have to worry about problems that could occur when I'm grown.
Why I don't want to grown??

Because I'm scared.

I'm scared to grown up and know that my life will turn to a life that will be sucks.
I'm scared to grown up and get a more severe life.
I'm scared to grown up and leave my happy times, like i feel right now.
I'm scared to grown up and be forgotten by all people who I loved.
I'm scared to grown up and I changed to unpleasant person.
I'm scared to grown up and make more stupid mistakes.
I'm scared to grown up and I can't take on these major changes.

I was afraid to feel it all fact. I was afraid to face it.

I don't want to grown up. I want my life to walk as it is today. Unchanged. Can I??

Of course not, everyone knew that. Life will keep continue to run. Do not care what I ask and what I want. And I must have to accept it. Pleased or no pleased, like it or not. Probably grow up will not be that bad as I think. It may will be one of the new happiness. Who knows?

Ps: I still want to accept the bids from Peterpan, if someday he came to me and promise to take me to Neverland. It's a golden opportunity right?