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"I love you,"

"In every word you say"

                                                           ....I love you too, I hope I always do .

I keep thinking that it's not goodbye, keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Graduation day FV1'53 in Sport Club Kelapa Gading, June 5th 2013

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change, keep on thinking things will always be the same

But, when we leave this year we won't be coming back no more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say, you better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town

So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still trying to break every single rules

And I keep thinking of the night in June, I didn't know much of love,but it came too soon

And There was me and you, and then it got real blue, stay at home talkin' on the telephone and

we would get so excited, then we'd get so scared. Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair

I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there? Can we make it somehow?

Yes, highschool is officially over. I'm officially graduated from Fons Vitae 1. I don't know whether should be happy or not. School over means time to say goodbye and goodbye means separation. And I always hate any kind of separation.

Gimana ya, dari kemaren udah sensitif banget kalo ngomongin perpisahan. Sedih karena tau ya SMA emang beneran udah kelar, masih gak rela dan gak percaya.

Gue rasa semua anak yang baru graduate ngerasain gini. Ngerasain rasanya bener-bener nggak mau pisah sama orang-orang yang udah sama-sama kita selama 3 tahun, yang ngeliat semua perubahan-perubahan kita. 

Maunya sih gak pisah cepet-cepet.... maunya. 

But, life still running and won't stop, yes?

Semua udah punya masa depan masing-masing.

We're gonna walk on different track from now on. Well, maybe yang namanya perpisahan emang udah bagian dari hidup, udah sepaket.

So, I'm not gonna curse time because he walk so damn fast.

Everythings change, but memories stay.

Chin up, head up and let us shout together "Hello future, surprise us!"

So, congratulation again EXPECTATO, may the odds be ever in your favor :)

As we go on, we remember, all the times we had together 

And as our lives change, come whatever........

........we will still be, friends forever

Tidak Terganti

10 Bersaudara is back in town fellas!!
Lagi sering-seringnya main sama mereka nih. Dari pas ulang tahun Meidy sampe kemaren main di Pantai.
Udah jalan 6 tahun kita sahabatan setiap ketemu kayaknya masih sama-sama aja, nggak ada yang berubah. Seneng deh.
Pas nulis post ini, sebenernya agak flashback gitu ke jaman SMP.
Lucu aja inget jamannya kita bersepuluh ke kantin bareng, nongkrong di Bu Gendut sampe sore, pulang naik angkot bareng, rapat (cuma 10 Bersaudara yang tau ini maksudnya apa), terus pas kita bener-bener bersepuluh ditempatin di regu sakura pas pramuka.
Ada sih jamannya kita berantem-berantem kecil gitu, cuma ya sekarang memori berantem nggak jelas itu justru jadi bahan ketawaan kalo lagi ngumpul.

Jadi pengen kumpul lagi.......

“Don't walk behind me; I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow. Just walk beside me and be my friend.” 

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them"

"Friendship isn't a big thing, it's a million little things"

We'll be friends forever, won't we?

Lulus

Angkatan #53 SMA Fons Vitae 1, Marsudirini

It's a wrap fellas, EXPECTATO FV1'13 LULUS 100%

Terimakasih atas kerjasama-nya selama 3 tahun ya #53

Congratulation, we survived high school and ended our very best moment of life, together.

But right now, these moments are not stories, this is happening

I remembered that day

You parked your car on a roadside, with a lake and a field as our view

Yeah, you took me to your favorite place, which mean you kept your promise

We just sitting there and talked about our things. And it was nice, very, very nice.

We laughed in many things.Yes we do, like there is no limit for us to laugh about anything in around us

Until we talked about our time. 

1 month to go.

And it's getting hard to pretend that I was strong enough to face it. No, I'm not. 

There are so many things that crumble in my mind. There are too many "What if..?"  

Well, in that time you saw me trying so hard to not cry. You just staring at in silence.

In a second time you pull me in to your hug, I feel you kissed my hair for a couple times and suddenly said,
 "it's okay, we will be alright, we can fight the distance if we stay together"

Honestly, it was surprised me, because you know, this is not our thing. We're not kind of a romantic people.

But, I have to admit that i loved it, i loved being in around your arms. I feel safe.

I feel so much better, and I know that we can through this, together.

I realized that I already fall in to you. Deep.

The best thing that I know now is you're exist and you're mine

The Final Page Episode

“The Robin”
Step 1:  Admit to yourself that you still have feelings for this girl
Step 2:  Choose the completely wrong moment to make a move and get shot down on purpose
Step 3:  Agree that you two don’t work, locking the door on any future you have together
Step 4:  Robin goes nuts
Step 5:  Find the person that annoys Robin the most in the world (Patrice) and ask for her help
Step 6:  Check with doctor about possible broken ribs after big hug from Patrice
Step 7:  Pretend to be dating Patrice
Step 8:  Wait until Robin inevitably breaks into your apartment to show the Playbook to Patrice
Step 9:  After Robin shows Patrice the Playbook pretend to have a fight
Step 10:  Show your “loyalty” to Patrice by burning the Playbook; besides you don’t need it anymore
Step 11:  Wait for your friends to stage an intervention for Robin
Step 12:  Tell only Ted about your intentions to propose to Patrice
Step 13:  Wait and see if Ted tells Robin, and if he does, it means your best bro in the world has let her go and given you his blessing
Step 14:  Robin arrives at her favorite spot in the city, and finds this page to the playbook
Step 15:  Robin realizes she’s standing under mistletoe

Robin: “Seriously, Barney? Even you — even someone as certifiably insane as you — must realize this is to far! You lied to me, manipulated me for weeks. Do you really think I could kiss you after that? Do you really think I could trust you after that? This, this is proof of why we don’t work,  why we’ll never work. So thank you. You set me free. How could I be with a man who thinks that this trick, this enormous lie could ever make me want to date him again?
Barney: Turn it over.

Step 16:  Hope she says yes. 

“Robin Sherbatsky, will you marry me?”
“Yes.”

This episode absolutely be my all time favorite. No doubt.

Barney & Robin

Barney:	I'm done. You don't have to worry anymore.
Robin:	What do you mean?
Barney:	I'm done. Trying to get you. I can't do it anymore. I'm sorry it's taken me this long to figure it out, but I promise... I'm done making a fool of myself.
Robin:	Barney, you haven't been making a fool out of yourself-
Barney:	It's okay, it's okay. I want it to be okay. So here's what's gonna happen: I'm gonna get us two drinks, come back and comment on the likely size and color of the nipples on that redhead at the bar... with the big, dark nipples... And you're gonna be grossed out, but you're gonna laugh a little anyway, and then you'll tell a funny story about 'that bitch Patrice' at work, but neither of us are gonna say "Hey, how's it going? Good to see you!" because, it really will be good to see you. Think we can swing that?
Robin:	Yeah. I do.
Barney:	Badass.

Sometimes, you have to realize that you've been fooling around while trying to get something that you want. You gave your very best shot and try to make your own self think and believe you can have anything you want. But it's not, that's not how the things work. 

You have to open your eyes wider, dude.

"Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you got to do is call"

"And I declare, that I was forever grateful to have them in my life"

18

Nama: Tara Rasasti

Umur: Sudah 18

Iyanih umur gue udah 18.

Iya, iya gue tau kesannya gue tua banget sekarang. Rasanya baru kemaren gue masuk usia legal WNI, baru kemaren seneng-seneng dapet KTP, dapet SIM, terus seneng karena jam malem ditambahin, eh sekarang udah nambah setahun aja. Waktu mungkin sekarang bukan jalan lagi tapi lompat kodok pake per di atas trampolin.

Jujur tahun ini gue gak begitu excited sama tanggal 25. Gue punya teori, mungkin semakin bertambah umur seseorang, semakin berkuranglah rasa semangat untuk cepet cepet ganti umur, soalnya dulu kayaknya gue semangat 95 banget kalo udah deket-deket tanggal saat gue berpisah dengan tali pusar gue, sekarang? Biasa. 

Pengennya malah kalau bisa jangan cepet-cepet ganti angka.

Tapi,

gak berarti gue gak inget sama tanggal ini, gue inget, inget banget malah. 

Dan gue harus mengakui, saat gue dinyatakan sah berumur 18, hal pertama yang gue pikirin adalah gue akan berevolusi. Gue merasa akan ada banyak hal yang berubah dari hidup gue yang biasanya, akan ada banyak moment yang terbentuk, akan banyak cerita dengan alur, latar tempat & waktu yang beda dan tokoh-tokoh baru yang akan tertulis, akan ada petualangan baru.

Entah siapa yang akan tetap tinggal dan siapa yang pergi. Entah kenangan mana yang akan tetap  terpatri dan yang akhirnya kehapus.

Jadi takut,

......takut petualangannya gak seseru petualangan yang sekarang, takut semua berubah.

This

"And now I am going to leave with you with a short paragraph that my bestfriend text me on new year's eve a couple of years ago and I hope this will lead you to do something that will change your life forever, like it did mine: As we grow up,we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' heart. You'll fight with your best friends or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.So take lots of pictures laugh a lot, freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend in need, fall asleep watching the sun comes up, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back."

-Ika Natassa

Kurang dari 3 bulan

Entah ada angin apa, tiba-tiba gue pingin mampir dan nulis di blog ini.
Cukup lama ya ternyata nggak nulis disini, gue sempet lupa gimana rasanya ngeblog. Kangen. 
Well, terlalu banyak kejadian yang terjadi dan nggak sempet gue share disini.
Dan nggak mungkin kalo misalnya gue harus looking back ke masa lalu dan cerita apa aja yang udah gue alamin selama off dari blog ini. Tangan gue bisa punah.
Yang pasti apapun itu kejadian yang udah lewat semuanya sudah terlewati dengan baik.

So, yang mau gue ceritain disini mungkin adalah bagaimana gue menjalani hari-hari gue sebagai siswi kelas 12 ini. Say hello to PM, say hello to Try Out, say hello to hell. 
Yep, 2013 adalah tahun terakhir gue menjabat sebagai anak SMA. Kontrak gue sebagai penghuni SMA Fons Vitae 1 akan berakhir dalam waktu kurang dari 3 bulan lagi. Ngeri.

Tadi pas pelajaran ke 8-9, kita anak-anak kelas 12 dikumpulin di aula bawah untuk pembahasan UN.
Jadwal udah di tentuin, udah fix. 15 April-18 April adalah waktu dimana gue, teman-teman seangkatan, dan seluruh anak kelas 12 di Indonesia bertempur di Medan perang setelah di training selama 3 tahun. Belom lagi segala pernak pernik Ujian Sekolah plus Ujian Praktek. Okesip.
What can I say? 3 bulan ke depan bener-bener akan jadi bulan-bulan ter-hectic sepanjang 17 tahun gue hidup. 

Mengesampingkan semua itu, sebenernya gue seneng akan lepas seragam juga, akan lepas dari image anak SMA dan move ke lingkungan baru dimana lo bisa dibilang dewasa. Oke, oke, gue tau dengan ngomong gini gue secara tidak langsung mengetahui bahwa gue akan kena karma dan menjilat ludah gue sendiri, berharap bisa menarik kembali ucapan gue ini di semester pertama gue jadi mahasiswa. Tapi kalian juga pasti ngerasain kan lelah-nya melakukan rutinitas yang sama selama bertahun-tahun. Bosen. Jenuh. 

....tapi

Gue sadar pasti kalo sebenernya gue sendiri juga nggak dan belum rela (banget) keluar dari sekolah, dari rutinitas gue di SMA, dari pertemuan dengan orang-orang yang udah gue kenal selama 3 tahun, dari our very best moment in life. Nggak rela suer. 

Dari tadi gue udah midblowing sendiri pas Pak Romanus jelasin segala macem tetek bengek UN, gue ngeliat sekitar gue, disana banyak temen-temen seperjuangan gue lagi pada sibuk sendiri sama kawanannya, ketawa-ketiwi, ngobrolin hal-hal yang cuma mereka yang ngerti, tipikal anak SMA sekali. Well, orang-orang inilah yang setiap hari gue temuin.
Anyhow, gue ngebatin, apa mereka ngerasain hal yang sama kayak yang gue rasain ya? Apa mereka ngeh kalo waktu mereka untuk ketawa-ketawa bareng dan menikmati indahnya masa-masa SMA itu tinggal bentar banget.  
Atau cuma gue yang ngerasa galau gini nggak mau lepas dari memori-memori SMA?





Tunjuk tangan dong buat yang ngerasain juga,
......anyone?

Night Post

Holla!
Gue baru aja balik dari Triyuni Isabella 17th Birthday Party, which is so great and I do had a lot of fun with my swag friends. Laugh, dance and turning crazy is absolutely our expertise. Another great Saturday night for me :)
Harusnya sekarang gue udah ngulet di dalem selimut dan itung domba ampe bobo, tapi ternyata insom. So I decided to write this night post sekalian cerita ada kejadian apa aja yang udah lewat selama beberapa minggu belakangan ini. 
Well, as you know, me ( and the other FV kiddo) has been finishing up our final examination. Dan di sekolah sekarang lagi sibuk classmeeting gitu, yah so far seru sih, tapi kadang (agak) ngebosenin, apalagi kalo udah siang, bawaannya ngantuk, tapi gabisa tidur karena panasnya beberapa hari ini nyengat banget.
Oh ya, hari Senin nanti gue sama 2 angkatan FV nonton Soegija serentak lho di Metropole, hebat ye 4 studio di sewa semua sama sekolahan, udah gitu nontonnya gratis pula, ini yang gue demen, hahaha.


Itu seputar classmeet dan sekolah.


Diluar itu, gue udah punya banyak banget plan buat di jalanin, padahal mulai libur aja belom. 
Fyi, hari Selasa gue dipanggil Kompas buat interview, gue emang ngelamar buat magang disana, doain aja masuk ya kawan-kawan. Terus kemarin Bu Diena dari yayasan Sejiwa (Anti Bullying) telfon dan minta gue buat jadi pembicara di salah satu talkshow yg diadain yayasan mereka, karena gak enak mau nolak dan emang pengen bisa berpartisipasi di acara ini tanpa pikir panjang gue iyain aja ajakannya, bertambahlah job gue,lumayan. 


Oh iya oh iya!! kemaren gue pergi ke opening nightnya brightspot market si Gancit, for invitation only acaranya, how lucky me I got that invitation from kaWanku, hehehe.


Itu baru separo cerita, sisanya gue udah diajak atau diundang si ini ngapain, di ajak si itu daftar ini, janji sana, janji sini, pengen ikut aplly program ini, pengen nyoba itu, pokoknya there is a loooot of things that I want to do in this month, surely it will be great misalnya bisa terealisasikan semua, asal timingnya pas aja, gak nabrak-nabrak.


Busy busy busy.


Doain semua berjalan lancar aja deh. See you in the next post.

Another Goodbye

In the middle of my megatastic assigments and 85% from my examination preparation, I decided to wrote this post. Why it is becomes so important? Because this post I present for INCHISE. My second family in school for last a year.
Final examination will be start on Thursday, it means tomorrow is our last day to work in one team, in one class. 
I just can't believe it, time goes super duper fast, it feels like we just meet each other, introduce ourself one by one, and try to accept that we're gonna be class partner for less than one year, try to make some friendship. And now, poof.... we're already stand 20cm back in finish line.
It is too fast, being with INCHISE is such a great pleasure to me. 
I laugh, I cry, I'm going wild and half-crazy, I'm mad, well....., INCHISE know it all. 
Remember when we were on History play role project?
Remember when we won first place at PETASAN celebration?
Remember when Bu Lusi gettin mad in our class and all of us is going to the Teacher's room and beg her appologize? 
Remember when....... ah, too much memories that we've made. I can't spill it out, one by one. 
Most of all, it is great, it just great :")
I've learned so many things when I'm with you INCHISE.
Thanks, thanks for every single things that you gave to me.

 See you never XIS1. See you INCHISE :)

Filosofi Layang-layang

"Kalo emang suka, ya kejar terus, lanjutin apa yang udah lo lakuin belakangan ini. Lo bilang dia udah suka sama orang lain? Itu bukan alasan untuk berhenti. Ibaratnya dia layang-layang, orang lain ini baru megang itu layangan doang buat siap-siap diterbangin, lo dorong aja orangnya, gantian lo yang megangin sampe akhirnya itu layangan terbang, kalo udah terbang, dijaga biar tetep meliuk-meliuk diatas, dijaga biar talinya nggak kena gesek tali lain, dijaga biar nggak putus"

Teman Kecil

Di post ini gue mau menceritakan kisah gue sama Andre. 

Siapa itu Andre? Bukan kok Andre bukan pacar gue, gebetan juga bukan.

Terus siapa dong? 

Dia temen kecil gue :)

Iya, jadi dia itu adalah temen main gue di komplek perumahan gue yang dulu di Angkasa Puri Jln. Pepaya. Dia anaknya Om dan Tante Destiawan. Rumah dia nomor 6, rumah gue no 10. 

Gue temenan sama dia dari gue masih keluar rumah cuma pake kutang sama kancut ampe gue sekitar kelas 5 SD. Dia punya kakak namanya Manda, kakaknya juga sohiban gue dulu. 

Andre itu setahun lebih muda dari gue.

Andre itu gimana ya, ehm, dia endut, gue inget dia dulu pernah pas SD kelas 1, jatoh ngegelundung saking bulet badannya. Tapi dia baiiiiik banget, gue dulu kalo main kerumahnya suka dikasih cemilan yang enak-enak gitu.

Dulu kita sering main benteng, petak umpet, main karet (gue selalu sampe Merdeka, dan Andre stuck di bagian ipis, paling banter pinggang), kita juga sering main engklek sama sepedaan sampe maghrib. Pas jaman otopet kita main otopet bareng, persis kaya teletubies. Terus kalo lagi masa puasa, gue inget abis buka, gue sama Andre pasti main bulu tangkis bareng-bareng sama temen-temen sekomplek juga, kalo punya duit patungan beli kembang api, sama petasan korek. Gue inget tuh, dulu geng main gue udah kaya kumpulan mau demo, abisan banyak banget orangnya, ada Gue, Andre, Ninoy, Manda, Andika, Tia, Iyung, Wulan, Dea, Dita, Gifi, Fani, Dede, sama Albert. Berasa keren lho jadi bagian geng Pepaya ini, suer :D

Oke back to Andre. Well, kita emang sempet deket banget banget banget, tapi entah kenapa semakin tambah umur, semakin sibuk sama sekolah masing-masing, sama temen-temen baru, dan ya kita semakin dewasa, akhirnya gue sama Andre tambah jauh dan nggak pernah lagi yang namanya main bareng. Begitu juga dengan anggota geng Pepaya lagi. Kita masih satu komplek tapi nggak pernah tegur sapa lagi, sedih kalo inget kita pernah jajan bareng-bareng, beli siomay gerobakan bareng terus makan bareng juga di teras rumah Andika, pokoknya sempet dekeeeeeeeet bangeeeeet deh :|

But, life must go on. Gue yang juga mulai sibuk dan punya temen-temen baru akhirnya berubah cuek bebek aja, terakhir kumpul pas Iyung meninggal (karena leukimia :"<), setelah itu udah nggak ada kontak, kalo ada Ninoy di depan rumahnya lagi nyuci mobil gue gapernah nyapa, Albert Dea Dita pindah aja gue gak say goodbye, sisanya gue nggak tau pada kemana, but the worst is gue gapernah lagi ketemu Andre, si endut kesayangan gue itu. Sekali waktu ketemu pas gue SMP itupun gue nggak say hi, dia juga nggak ngomong apa-apa. Gila ya. 

Itu terus berlanjut sampe gue pindah rumah ke Jati Bening setengah taun yang lalu. Agak sedih pas pindah inget banyak banget kenangan-kenangan masa kecil gue disitu, secara gue 16 tahun disana.

Then, sekitar bulan september 2011, gue tiba-tiba disuruh nyokap gue ikut EF di Kalimalang. Akhirnya gue masuk, dan ditempatkan dikelas yang asing buat gue. Gue nggak kenal sama sekali anak-anak disitu broh. Tapi di tengah ke asingan itu gue nemuin sosok yang nggak asing, tapi gue gak kenal siapa sosok itu, setengah jam nginget-nginget kira kira itu siapa, gue baru sadar kalo itu ANDRE! 
Andre temen kecil gue!!! 
Temen lari-lari cuma pake kancut sama kutangan bareng!! 
Itu ANDRE!!

For God sake, Andre berubah banget. Dia udah nggak endut lagi, nggak bulet lagi. Dia bertransformasi jadi titisan anak gaul Jakarta sekarang. Rambut jambul, behelan, dan mukanya berubah. Lumayan cakeplah. 

Akhirnya setelah kita saling sadar, dan setelah meyakinkan diri masing-masing kalo "ya ini emang temen masa kecil gue" kita mulai nostalgia jaman kecil kita. Alam mempertemukan gue dan dia kembali. Dahsyat sodara-sodara, seneng-nya undescribe banget deh bisa ketemu lagi sama Andre, bisa main lagi, jalan bareng, curhat-curhatan bareng, dan sampe sekarang kita masih rutin ketemu Selasa Kamis di EF. 

Dan sampe sekarang juga, selalu ada cerita-cerita masa kecil kita berdua buat kita omongin lagi, ngomongin temen-temen main kita dulu, ngomongin mainan kita jaman baheula. Lucu bayangin kenangan-kenangan jaman dulu, pas gue main otopet dan nyusruk ke got, pas gue sama temen2 yg lain main benteng dan pas lari-lari gue jatoh dan rok gue kesingkap, pas Andre naik sepeda tapi pas di turunan dia nggak ngerem dan akhirnya nabrak kandang monyet peliharaan Pak Untung tetangga kita, terus pas gerobak siomay langganan gue sama anak-anak yg lain nyusruk dan kebalik ampe piring-piringnya pada pecah gara-gara polisi tidur di depan rumah gue, bukannya bantuin abangnya beberes, gue sama temen-temen gue dan sama ibu-ibu komplek malah ngambilin siomay yg belum kotor. Kita selalu ngakak kalo inget itu semua. Ngomongin masa kecil mah nggak ada habisnya.

Lucu ya, lebih lucu lagi adalah bagaimana gue dan Andre, sepasang anak ciki gopean berkancut dari Jln.Pepaya, dipertemukan kembali ;)

Good to see you again, Ndre :)

Andre Fianto

Secondhand Serenade

Semalem gue nonton Secondhand Serenade. Gue nonton bareng Mey & Yoshua, dari awal gue udah tau kalo ini emang pilihan paling bodong yang gue ambil. Nonton konser yang isinya lagu teplek yang bikin garuk tanah, bareng mereka berdua yang show up sebagai couple. Can you imagine being in my position yang cuma bisa lirik-lirik mereka yang dalam diam mengisyaratkan suara hati mereka? 

Miris? Banget. 

Disaat orang-orang teriak-teriakan ngikutin Om John nyanyi, dimana gue harusnya nyanyi bareng dan have fun sama 2 orang yang ada di sebelah gue, entah kenapa gue malah kebanyakan bengong. Gue galau di tempat dan waktu yang salah. Tapi gue gatau pasti gue galauin apa. Blame it Om John karena suaranya lah yang mendukung gue untuk galau lebih jauh dan dalam.

Then, gue sadar. Gue sadar gue galauin apa, gue galauin kenangan-kenangan indahnya. Every single things, that we've been through and build together.

Gue juga galauin pikiran sama hati gue yang jalan gak searah. Hati maunya apa, tapi pikiran bilangnya apa. Gue bilang ke dia gue pengen gini, tapi di sisi lain yang dia gatau, gue maunya gitu.

Right in time gue sadar kalo ada sesuatu antara gue dan dia yang belom kelar.

Dia pernah bilang, dia belom bisa ngerelain. Well, so do I.

What we should do then? 

Mau balik kaya dulu? Mau! 

Tapi.........,gabisa :-/

Kadang gue suka hampir di tiban batu sama temen gue yang gue ceritain tentang ini, saking gregetannya. Kata mereka gue terlalu suka mikir panjang, taunya mereka kalo sayang ya udah lanjutin. Tapi gabisa gitu. Gimana dong? Gue juga bingung. 

Selesai Om John main Piano bawain lagu Fall For You. Gue kira kegalauan gue akan berakhir. Gue udah netesin air mata di 3 lagu, 3 lagu doang kok dan gue gamau gitu lagi, gue kan kuat.

Tau-tau dia masih bawain lagu lagi. Dan pertahanan gue malah jebol lebih parah pas lagu ini nyampe di sebait lirik.

"When you're too in love, to let it go"

Om John Vesely, situ kalo niat bikin saya galau sukses lo. Sukses beradz pake dz.

Idk Why

Stop talking each other? Correct.
Pretend to not see each other? Correct.
In position that you are the one who always open the conversation? Yeap.
Tired of this bull? Of course.

1 question, who are screw all of things up first? 


Me or you?


Or it is us?
  

I'll wait for that day

17!!

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

17 from now on.

2 Hours Left

Hey, it's March 24 2012 | 22.05 already. Tommorow is March 25, of course.

Which mean, I will face 365 new days, new adventures, new stories, ditemani dengan bayang-bayang angka 17 yang terstempel di jidat gue.

17. I don't even realize why time jumping so quickly, rasanya baru kemaren gue tiup lilin ulang tahun ke 16 gue, but now, I'm sitting here, facing that in about 2 hours I'm turning 17.

Jujur, gue belum siap menjadi seseorang yang berumur 17.

Seneng sih mau masuk ke umur 17.

Inget dulu, when I was like 12-13, gue suka baca majalah, terus ngeliat orang-orang yang masuk ke majalah itu umurnya sekitar 17 tahunan, dan gue ngerasa orang-oarang itu keren banget.

Dulu gue semangat nungguin umur gue bertambah setahun demi setahun till' I enter 17th years old zone.

Tapi itu dulu. Sekarang nggak tau kenapa saat pintu 17 itu mulai kebuka 1/2,5 bagiannya, gue malah takut, gue deg-degan, gue malah pengen balik ke umur 14-15.

17 itu kesannya sakral banget, I don't even know why.

Padahal pas kita 17, semua hal yang dulu kita nggak bisa kita lakuin dilegalkan. Bahkan untuk nikah pun udah bisa. Dapet SIM dan dapet KTP yang udah gue tunggu setahun belakangan ini.

I think I'm scared.

Facing the world. Tau kalo gue udah nggak bisa terlalu banyak main-main.

17 berarti gue dituntut untuk lebih dewasa, lebih bijaksana, lebih baik di segala bidang.

17 berarti sadar kalo gue yang menentukan kemana arah hidup gue dibawa. Dimana gue harus lebih tanggung jawab, tanggung jawab sendiri atas semua pilihan yang akan gue ambil.

I know that maybe I'm thinking too much. Many people says that 17 it's the right time to enjoy your life, it's the best and the greatest time to making the best story of life.

Well, I hope so.

Doain semoga semua baik-baik ya.

Doain gue supaya gue yakin kalo memasuki 17 itu adalah sebuah awal yang baik.

Doain gue supaya gue bisa menikmati angka 17 ini dengan baik, dan membuktikan omongan orang-orang kalo di umur 17 inilah masa-masa hidup terbaik dari yang paling baik gue bisa tercetak.

Doain, untuk sekarang cuma itu yang gue minta.